Sunday, April 09, 2006

Hmmmm....


Matt mentioned to me that this morning before church he felt like today was the day that Meili was born. I had a feeling yesterday while I was shopping that she would be born soon. Thought I'd post here just to weigh against the facts once we finally have them.

I have always felt like when she was born, I'd know it. Of course, when we started this process 7 months ago, things had been so steady that you could pretty much guess on a birthdate within a few weeks or so based on other people's timelines-not the case now!

The hard thing is the new level of anxiety. I used to be able to think about my daughter, floating in amniotic fluid somewhere on the other side of the world and that was ok. But now, our daughter has some real needs and I'm not there to meet them. She might have a great nanny, but a nanny is not a mother.

The thought of 1.2 million children living in Chinese orphanages is heartbreaking. Knowing that your daughter is one of them is an especially hard one to swallow. I just pray that Meili will be safe, warm, fed and cared for until we can bring her home.

1 comment:

Erin said...

I know this hard but chances are that Meili is in a wonderful orphanage with someone that loves her very much. Remember that there is one nanny for every 2 to 3 babies. And she could even be in foster care! When I say my prayers tonight for Meisey, I will make sure that Meili is also prayed for. Hugs!